sick

listening to naruto ost

developed a nasty rash around 2 weeks ago but i dismissed it as some common rashes that i always get.. bad move..

the rashes looked really bad and the pain was so bad that i couldnt sit up straight most of the time.. so cs bought me to a doctor and the doctor said its a viral infection caused by the dormant chicken pox virus in my body.. hokkein peeps call it zua or snake.. anti viral medication would burn a hundred dollar hole in my wallet so i decided to turn to chinese doctor for help.. i was given one week mc (would have enjoyed it if i don have those nasty rashes on me)..

help came in the form of an auntie who helped me burn (yes! with fire) the blardy snake.. now there are two very horrible looking holes on my forehead.. ive got to stay away from certain food like eggs ( =( why eggs??).. chicken.. prawns.. soya sauce.. blah blah.. the list goes on..

staying away from these food is ok for me cos im used to it.. i always have to stay away from them when im having rashes (and i get rashes very often).. the worst thing is.. my hands and feet MUST stay away from water.. and i cant bath caues the snake thingy will act up again.. so that means no washing of hands after shitting and all (everyone.. do not accept food offered by me using my bare hands)..

i thought all these no water thingy were crap so i bathed before i went to NUH for lectures yesterday.. in the end.. the pain was so bad that i was complaining about it every 5 minutes..

NOW, I SERIOUSLY BELIEVE IN THE NO WATER RULE.

the shower that i had yesterday really did a lot of damage.. i swear i will be good and listen to the auntie from now on until the rashes has cleared..

i really hate the way i look now.. ugly like a pug.. i hate the fact that pimples are popping out cause i cant wash my face.. i hate the fact that my balding condition is worse than ever cause i cant wash my hair.. i hate the 2 ugly holes on my forehead.. i hate the fucking rashes.. i feel so ugly... despise myself..

for friends who have absolutely no idea what illness im suffering from.. i found this little bit of info on the net.. after much thinking.. i think im suffering from shingles (have not studied for nothing).. here goes..

Shingles (herpes zoster) are an outbreak of rash or blisters on the skin that is caused by the same virus that causes chicken pox - the varicella-zoster virus. Early signs of shingles include burning or shooting pain and tingling or itching located on one side of the body or face. After several days a rash of small blisters appears on reddened skin. The piercing and unrelenting pain associated with shingles can be set off by a gentle touch or a soft breeze on the skin. Anyone who has had chicken pox in the past is at risk for developing shingles later because the virus remains inactive, or dormant, in certain nerve cells of the body. Scientists are not certain why the virus reactivates, or why it only reactivates in about 20 percent of the people who have had chicken pox. There is evidence to suggest that a weakened immune system may cause the virus to break out of its dormant state, multiply, and move along nerve fibers to the skin. People with a weakened immune system, such as those with cancer or HIV, people over the age of 50, or who are ill, experiencing trauma, or under stress, are at risk for shingles.
The Chinese refer to shingles as a snake because it usually appears as a girdle-like band on one side of the body. Pain usually precedes the rash. The person will feel general malaise, and the affected area of the skin will be sensitive to touch. The blisters tend to occur on one side of the body. The pain caused by shingles is often severe enough to warrant prescriptions of painkillers and antidepressants.
source - http://www.ninds.nih.gov/disorders/shingles/shingles.htm

HAHA herpes zoster virus? we all have herpes!! (peeps in my NUH class will know what i mean)..

conclusion from my mini research shows that i am very. xibeh. damn. fucking SUAY..
i do not have a weakened immune system.. i do not have cancer, nor HIV.. i am young and healthy.. i am not under trauma or stress.. but i still got the BLARDY rashes..

i have an extremely high threshold for pain (compared to most girls i presume for i do not yelp at little injuries) and i thought my threshold had decreased cause the pain caused by the rashes was really bad.. now i know that its SUPPOSED to be that painful (see all the highlighted parts)..

for people who havent been visited by chicken pox.. stay away from me cause chicken pox will visit you if you come near me.. =)