sick

listening to linkin park - numb

having common tests on wednesday.. and ive fallen very sick these few days.. sick at the wrong time.. very very sian.. started yesterday with a bleeding nose and fever.. nose is still running now and my ears have become blocked.. cant hear clearly in my right ear now.. this is so stupid.. im going mad soon..

read through haem and micro but my brain still feels empty.. im getting so frustrated i dunno what to do.. contemplating the thoughts of pulling my hair out but then i realised ive got not much hair left since im suffering from balding symtoms already.. shall leave my pathetic hair alone..

started studying chemistry today.. on a wrong note.. read through dry chem, sample processing and pre analytical variables.. could not understand a SINGLE word.. im dead.. im really gonna be dead this time.. ive still got osmometry.. spectro.. enzyme assays.. colorimetric assay.. if you don understand what im saying its ok.. cause i don understand it myself.. and im supposed to take my test on wednesday.. this is just crazy..

my mind just wanders off to think about him all the time.. cant control my mind also.. perhaps ive got a weak mind..

this is just great.. im going deaf and mad soon..