zzz

listening to - droning sound of my rusty lok cok fan

currently feeling very tired.. mentally i mean..

was talking through sms with a friend just now when my mom asked me if my friend is male or female.. havent got a chance to answer before she went on and said some rubbish thingy.. heres what she said (translated to english)

aiyo.. finally single and carefree again.. dont find another boyfriend so soon lah.. must think carefully ah.. blah blah.. (dont get me wrong.. she liked cs to be my bf.. cos she was quite sad to hear that we broke up the other day.. she just thinks that im happy being single and carefree now - which is totally wrong)..

i cant see myself so i dont know what was the face that i gave her.. but she didnt dare talk to me for hours after i gave her that face.. so i guess its some face that shows that im about to explode like a bomb (its freaking scary if i explode)..

cant she see my miserable face at home everyday? cant even understand her own daughter.. cannot make it..

i still love him as much as i did.. itll prolly take me donkey years before i can stop loving him.. and more donkey years before i can find someone who likes me.. and more donkey years before i like that person back.. and even more donkey years for us to be together.. well of course i hope i can be together with the same old person again.. thats my greatest wish.. but the idea is.. if i cant be together with him ever again, it will prolly take me very long (donkey years) to find another someone..

MOM AH.. your daughter is not that flower-hearted!!!