i miss cs

listening to simple plan - dont wanna think about you

went for a hair cut this afternoon to layer my hair.. which looks more and more like a mushroom as it grows thicker..

looks much better now..

but i still cant bear to cut my hair short.. although i would like to in this horrible weather.. im like living in an oven 24/7 these days..

call me stupid or whatever you like.. i just cant bear to cut my hair short whenever i think of how he promised to tie my hair up for me when its long..

speaking of him.. his msn nick these days seem to indicate that hes not feeling pretty well..

somehow.. i still feel the tinge of sadness to imagine him falling sick with no one to take care of him..

as for him.. i cant imagine him being able to take care of himself either..

how i wish i..

argh. forget it.

i just hate the feeling of being able to do nothing..

i was reading my old blog entries before i start writing this.. i could sense how much i loved him just by reading the entries..

reminiscing about the past brings back memories.. found myself smiling while i read through memories of the happy days..

smiling while tears roll down my face..

smiling while feeling sad and lonely..

i realised that i probably still love him as much as i used to..