to yiting..

please.. will you wake up from your dream? he isnt coming back.. period.

you're in such a mess right now.. it sucks to see you in this state.. and im sure your mum and grandpa is going to get worried about you keeping to yourself all the time in your room..

didnt you say that you were happy just to see him leading his life happily? why are you always secretly hoping that you will be a part of his happy life? didnt you hate people who contradict themselves? why are you doing exactly just that?

you tell yourself and everyone around you that you are starting to move on.. but thats just another contradiction..

hes still the first person that comes to your mind whenever you need someone to be there..

hes still the person you go to for help..

hes still the person whos always on your mind..

you still check his nick like once in a while.. hoping to see something that might tell you how was his day.. because you dont have the guts to ask..

you feel all alone when you got to go home yourself after training just because hes not there..

you still think of him whenever you see things that reminds you of the past..

you still keep his birthday greeting message to you in your phone even though it just says 'happy birthday'..

you still miss him a lot dont you?

you got to move on.. didnt the weird looking modules and exam dates freak you out today?

how are you going to be able to run the last mile in your final year if you go on occupying your mind with nothing but memories of him?

move on.. just like he did..