Unhappy

listening to x japan - the last song

honestly, i dont know why i am unhappy..

no, its not that time of the month.

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so, this entry is still going to be a rojak of my thoughts.. i know its dumb putting up entires that dont make much sense but i dont really care..

im sure friends who care will still continue to read my blog even though its not exactly reader friendly these days..

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i cant see any solid brown wood on my table surface now.. every single square mm of it is covered with my exam notes (not cleared)/wires/magazines/hairclips/books

other unusual things on my table right now...

- banana skin ( i just ate one)

- my shirt from yesterday's training

- my black belt

- a pair of socks (clean ones)

sometimes i wonder if im a girl..

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ive just been ''permed'' by the boss yesterday.. the medical benefits are unbelievable.. its insane..

but as i was telling cs, i would have to break a leg or an arm or get the chicken flu (joke that came from cme this morning) or something if i want to use those benefits..

i hope to get the fried egg badge during the orientation though..

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recently, i am hearing more and more people telling me that i am very scary/fierce..

to the extent that some of them didnt dare to come near me/ talk to me.. even close friends have told me that..

i can understand why people say im fierce during training.. ive got to admit that i am during lessons.. but i seriously think im ok outside lesson what.. very fierce meh..

i dont get it..

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i almost accepted a job offer that requires me to work on the weekend.. man i got scoldings and harsh words from almost everyone that heard the news, the common question being:

YOU WANT TO WORK YOURSELF TO DEATH IS IT?!

seriously i wouldnt have cared if i worked myself to death.. the ultimate thing that led to me not going for the interview was that it would clash with my full time job when i start working on shifts..

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got no more random thoughts to spew for the moment..