im not exactly the happiest girl on earth right now so this entry is going to be full of the usual shit that i get in my shit-filled life.

i cant believed i called up my ISP (doesnt take much brains to figure out which bloody lousy one) in the middle of the night yesterday just because i couldnt stand the bloody connection anymore.

i dont have an important reason to be online. i just cant stand being cut off from the connection.

believe it or not, i was very polite when i FIRST called (trained from receiving calls from anal retentive doctors asking stupid brainless questions).

but my patience soon wore thin.

the first operator i called blamed it on my microfilter and she told me to unplug all the microfilters that i have and then plug it back.

it didnt work and i called back the bloody ISP again, this time not as polite as the first time i called.

this cow dung-brained operator blamed it on my modem and told me to restart my modem a few times to see if i could connect to the net.

that sounded stupid because but i tried anyway and surprise!!

it didnt work for nuts.

so i called back the ISP again, this time drinking more water to prevent myself from drying up due to my boiling blood.

the third bloody operator said that there must be something wrong with the whatever bloody hardware in my laptop and told me to bloody call IBM to solve the bloody problem.

me: can you people stop playing tai-ji with me? im honestly sick of it.

operator: silence.

me: this is NOT the first time this has happened and this conversation is not going to end unless you give me a solution that doesnt require me to call somebody else when the fault obviously lies with _____ (insert ISP's name in blank).

(yes i said that in one breath.)

operator: miss, you got to understand that we got to try out many ways in order to find out the root of this problem. it is not our problem as our system shows that you are connected to the internet.

me: i dont find it funny to call you and get myself so pissed off in the middle of the night if im connected to the internet right now.

operator: miss im afraid there is nothing i can do for you at the moment until you call IBM to ask them to solve the problem for you.

me: the bottomline is im NOT calling IBM and i want a solution from you RIGHT NOW. not an excuse to push this problem to another party.

operator: maybe you can try to use the cable to connect your laptop to the modem.

me: so im expected to have this wire hanging between my laptop and the modem?

operator: yes miss.

me: when im paying the price for a WIRELESS internet connection?

operator: yes miss.

*at this moment, internet connection suddenly comes on like magic*

operator: miss you might have to try that as i think its the only way to solve the problem right now.

me: forget it. (hangs the phone)

are they brainless or what?

i wont be surprised if they blame my speakers or my thumbdrive or adaptor or house phone or whatever fucking devices connected to my laptop at that bloody moment.

im so pissed i cant find the word to express my anger.

even "fuck" wont do the job anymore.