listening to jay - 夜曲

im really very (times a gazillion times) tired.

i think i haven felt this tired/weary/drained/useless/down/out since the time i was dumped by him.

ah gong is in hospital and theres no way i can help him.

i feel so like shit.

and im dead tired.

can u imagine being at a hospital for more than 12 hours each day for 7 days straight? that damn place is zapping whatever energy that is left in me.

i think im going to break down soon. as in physical breakdown.

my head has been giving me hell 24/7 for the past few days and i think i look no different from the pandas in china now. cept that theyre worth more than me.

can someone just kill me?

i really mean it.

being killed beats being tormented physically and mentally.