Listening to Jay - 本草纲目

just last week one relative went up the lorry.

another one is in the ICU now.

i wonder how does it feel like to see your elder siblings die one by one while wondering when is it your turn.

i wonder how my grandfather feels.

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i went out with cuiwen today. i think its interesting to have a close friend whose birthday is 4 days before mine. the exchange of presents reminds me of xmas. lol.

anyway, i saw this

muaha.

king sized!

the grandfather of my bag, at double the price.

i so wanted to blow up my bank account and lug the bag home but.

thats like 3 days of my pay.

or around half of what i give my family each month.

or 1/3 of the monthly bill for the house loan.

or lunch for 3 months.

or transport for 2 months.

the list goes on.

self-control.