Listening to Jay - Huang Jin Jia

spent my off day playing badminton with the gang.

damn. after all the cartwheels and my dexterity, my left arm is significantly (ie, visibly) bigger than my right arm.

cant help but feel that the 2 hr plus of badminton today is going to contribute more to it.

boo hoo.

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i am so super broke now cos ive been going out a lot more these days.

just the transport alone is enough to kill.

desperately need to receive my pay + bonus before i have to go back to surviving on biscuits and bread.

boo hoo.

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work sucks these days.

and im going to work continuously from now on cos all my off-days for this month are over.

on top of that im supposed to find some time out of no time to prepare my CME.

boo hoo hoo.

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life sucks.

i haven seen mum for more than half an hour a day continuously for i cant even remember how long already.

her OT pay per hour is like half of mine during normal hours.

i dont see why shes sacrificing all the family time for the shit-nuts (peanuts sound too expensive in this case) that shes earning.

so not worth it in my opinion.

to counter her going home late everyday, i have been going home late too (read: after midnight) so i dont have to face the four walls or watch gramps sleep.

i think gramps is the ultimate victim in this cold war (sort of) cos hes practically at home alone 24/7 these days.

to the point where hes darn happy just to see me at home. we shared a packet of rice for lunch before i went out today. and hes still talking about how yummy it was when i came back.

its just rice with potatoes.

now i feel guilty for not spending more time with him.

damn.