Listening to Tank - 岚

i tried to be a good girl this week and go straight to sleep after watching survivor but i failed again.

it wasnt because of survivor that made me lose my sleep this time round. had another acute attack of intestinal spasm.

really bad this time round because i havent been visiting my toilet for almost 2 weeks already.

was talking to gwen halfway on msn when the attack struck. wanted to apologise for going MIA but shes already gone =(

the pain is so severe and it feels neither here nor there so i havent taken any medication because i dont know what to take.

charcoal or anti spasmodic or just po chai pills?

anti spasmodic sounds like the right option but i missed going to the toilet for so long i got blue in the face and felt like i was a shit bomb waiting to explode the last time i took it.

thats the problem with western medicine. 治标不治本.

im working G7 tomorrow and it absolutely upsets me because i got only 4 hours to go before i have to wake up. and im still awake.

two kinds of situation tomorrow.

(1) both advia(s) behave themselves, i got nice QCs, the centrifuge dont go haywire, no fucked up doctors, blessed patients with no panic values for me to report, i go off at 1624, go for a run before going for training, i close both eyes towards the unmotivated and the untalented.

(2) both advia(s) die on me, the QCs suck, the centrifuge dies, fucked up doctors call, lots of panic values, i go off late, i miss my run, i go for training, i scold the unmotivated and the untalented.

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ive decided to go with po chai pills. shall reserve the anti spasmodic as a last resort.

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