周杰伦 - 安静

i blacked out again while walking towards the toilet this morning.

its kind of worrying cos the frequency is getting higher these days. dr couldnt tell what was wrong but i guess its bad enough.. to earn me 2 days worth of mc.

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a good friend cum colleague of mine called me a moment ago to tell me that she feels very upset for me when she saw the new roster.

apparently, someone else who felt upset for me told her about my schedule next month.

i have been feeling sick for the past few days, i feel so alone trapped in my weak body and depressed mind. mum is forever not at home, gwen is stressed from mugging, he.. feels distant from me again.

the forever fucked up roster is upsetting me further.

apparently, im supposed to be resting on 1st of may while person A is supposed to be working.

Person A is very angry that he is scheduled to work on a public holiday and he went up to the woman and told her that he refused to work on that day.

the woman simply walked took the roster, canceled him as off for that day, and put me as the one working instead.

just like that. what the fuck.

why?

because im probably the only one in the lab who doesnt argue with her over the roster(yet).

the best thing after this is that, im actually put to work on night shift (730 pm to 830 am) followed by evening shift (12pm to 9pm) the next day.

3 and a 1/2 hours of rest.

what am i? a robot?

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i know ive said this many times and everyone is sick of hearing it.. but i still want to say it.

would have thrown the resignation letter in her blardy face if im not supporting the family right now.