dear

i was chatting with yan online the other day and she mentioned about feeling lonely all of a sudden.. i guess im stuck with that feeling now.. cs is off to genting for 5 days.. his hp doesnt have any roaming services so communication between us is cut off for the next few days =(.. we have this habit of messaging each other every morning when we wake up and every night before we sleep.. i know its weird and pointless to many people out there.. but somehow its become a weird habit of ours.. this morning i woke up and switched on my hp.. waiting for the usual vibration as his message came through.. he told me that he will miss me during the trip (to my friends im not being mushy or anything by mentioning it here).. im so touched by the message that i almost teared.. well.. let me explain this exaggerated reaction.. cs is a really woody guy who doesnt know how to keep his gf (thats me) happy.. its not that he dont want to.. hes just hopeless at it.. he will never give way to me in an argument.. it will take him hours to realise that im feeling upset of angry.. he says things that hurt me and he will never realise it until i look at him and say that im upset with him.. and he is not the type of person to say all those mushy stuff to his gf.. i cant even recall when was the last time he told me that he miss me.. so the message this morning really touched me....
please dont get the idea that cs is a bad bf.. hes a very good one in my heart.. ive learnt to accept his woody(ness) long ago.. i still remember clearly what jun told me last time... ''when you like someone, you like him despite of his faults. when you love someone, you love him with his faults''.. so i strongly believe in accepting and tolerating with each other's faults instead of trying to change your partner into someone that is flawless (aka change him into someone thats just not him)..
cs and i just celebrated our 14th months together 2 days ago.. and i realised we have come so far in this relationship.. in the beginning of this relationship.. there were so much doubts about us being together.. we grew up in different environments.. we had different interests.. we were in 2 courses thats totally different.. etc etc.. we used to quarrel over these differences but we've overcome that.. now im actually glad for the diversity in our lives cause it provided us endless topics to talk about..
although we are still quarreling over petty stuff once in a while but the scale of our 'war' is not as great as in the past anymore.. we've learnt how to control our fiery tempers and harsh words better now (we both have stubborn characters and fiery tempers but i guess i win him hands down in both =P)
to end my ultra boring entry.. cs is a person that really understands me (he can even pre-empt what im going to say or do sometimes).. he promised to visit me the first thing when he reaches singapore this friday.. with his bags and all the barang barang.. really hope friday will come soon..