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listening to simple plan - untitled

time doesnt heal all pain.. im crying again as i type this entry.. grading went on smoothly.. i think i will pass if nothing goes wrong.. but im not feeling happy one bit..

i looked everywhere for him during grading today.. but hes not there.. should have expected this but somehow.. i still felt very disappointed when i cant spot him anywhere in the stand.. i can still remember the time he told me he will go to my grading no matter how busy he is.. i spent hours craning my neck just to catch a glimpse of him but he wasnt there..

i would have been truly happy if i could share my happiness with him.. happiness is nothing when theres no one is there to share it with me.. i really cant help it but miss him a lot.. i wonder how is he..

the world wont stop just because im upset.. i know this fact very well.. but i cant stop myself from feeling sad.. night time is really unbearable when im left alone with memories in my head.. i cant sleep.. i haven been eating.. i dont talk as much anymore.. i really dont want to be like that..

just when i thought my day was terrible.. a bomb was dropped on us during meeting today.. ch is dismissed from the club.. no one said anything but all the tears and silence says it all..

why is everything in my world falling apart?