runaway

listening to lin jun jie - jian jian dan dan

fuck man..

thats the only word i can use in my limited vocab to describe rehka's lecture this morning.. 3 hours of pure hell..

imaging planting your butt on the chair for 3 hours listening to chanting that u know nuts about.. drone and drone and drone.. like fuck.. and there i was enduring one of the worst stomach cramp ive ever had in my entire life while taking in all her shit..

really felt like just dying there as i squirmed in my seat trying to find a better position to ease the pain in my stomach.. but there was none.. cant bring myself to take out the pinky (god damn why must it be pink?) panadol and pop it in class..

endurance pushed to the limits man.. *shakes head*

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travelled all the way to ttsh from school after the weekly talk cork lunch session with chiu yen.. and my stomach just keeps getting worse on the way there (the train is like so darn cold).. i couldnt take it eventually so i ran away (literally) from the lab at 3 plus..

cos the lab aircon is like so damn cold and im shivering non stop under my jacket and labcoat.. horrible man.. so i just pretended to take a walk to the staff lounge.. no one was in there.. so..

i went back to the lab, grabbed my file, ran out through the back door near the coad bench, jammed my key into the locker.. grabbed my bag.. and ran..

all the way until i was out of level 2.. my heart was still pumping freaking fast when i boarded the train..

this is what happens when u take in more shit than u can handle emotionally.. i think i became so fed up that i just ran (literally) away from things..

i hope no one discovers that im gone.. if they do.. i dont care.. wads done is done..

im so physically tired because of training.. 5 days last week.. 6 this week.. my body is just aching all over and theres no time to recover..

mentally tired thinking about my destruction kicks.. if the planks doesnt break this sun.. im gonna self destruct..

shucks..

going out for training (again) now.. my stomach isnt getting any better after the pinky i took..

ultimate sianzation..