listening to blue - if you come back

hmm..

life has been pretty fine cept for the part where i cant decide if i should go to an australian uni after i graduate.. its been bugging me and its making me feel really pek chek cause i really cant make up my mind..

other than that..

life at the polyclinic has been good after i started to pick things up weeks ago.. everyone is treating me really well now.. as compared to the first week while i was there..

they didnt blamed me when i almost singlehandedly crashed the FBC machine the other day.. got so bad that the technician had to be called in.. so guilty..

the lady that i did not like initially actually told me to leave the capping of the HbA1C tubes to her because its painful for the fingers (during the first week she made me do everything myself)..

they buy me snacks during breaks and drinks during lunch..

lots of other ways where they treat me really well.. i appreciate that a lot.. really..

and the most important thing is.. no one orders me around to do things anymore.. but i guess thats because i always shuffle around the lab trying to help them as much as i can without being told to do so..

but.. they can be over friendly at times.. like when one of them offered to introduce a guy to me.. brr.. kinda understand how daniel feels now.. but i guess hes having it worse.. cos the auntie there sounds more enthusiastic.. haha..

life is good there.. at least i dont dread going there everyday although i still dont like being a free labour..

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training yesterday was tiring.. all of us stood in the rain for a long scolding session by sir.. was feeling so giddy all the while..

but i guess.. after the scolding.. everyone had a greater motivation to do well in the nationals..

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exams are coming soon.. no time to study.. and im still suffering from the i dont want to study syndrome..

i wonder how.. but.. i must hold on.. just 6 months of hell left.. i must endure..