listening to jay - luan wu chun qiu

so..

2 bronze medals from the 4 fighters yesterday.. got no comments about it actually..

i always look at others' opponents and think that if i were sparring i would do this this this and that.. and i would prolly be able to beat the opponent..

but if im the one sparring everything would be different..

i always think its unfair to judge whether one did his/her best by looking at how he/she sparred.. cos i think no one will ever know except that person..

i believe them when they said they have tried their best.. and i got to admit that they really improved A LOT.. *looks at self in shame*

looking at the young girls spar yesterday.. i hope they will never grow up so they wont move up to the senior category to beat the living daylights out of me..

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so..

the saga continues (no its not abt him)..

i know its vague but i cant say much.. learnt the hard way never to comment too much about the politics in tkd..

lets just say that if i said im not upset by the way things are now i would be joking..

and when im upset nothing nice ever comes out of my damn mouth so im just going to shut up and see how things go..

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only managed to stare at betty's first set of notes today.. yes, i know it sounds pathetic.

i look at the people at ngee ann having 2 weeks break to study and i feel like hanging myself for being in such a stupid bloody (literally) course for the so called elites.. the school treats us like shit..

i hate ngee ann. i hate 9-5 attachments. i hate menopausal women. period. (pun intended)

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went for a run to make myself less fucked up but i ended up being more fucked up because my stamina has dropped to the pits.

i hate the goddamn floo.

now i cant run more than 3 km without breathing like im asthmatic..

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fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck!