Embarrassment

listening to ke you lun - ling

before i start my entry, singapore's blood banks are running out of blood.. i think the situation is quite serious.. go donate blood if you can alright? pull more people along if you're going..

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i think i can forget about being low profile in nuh.. fainted in the lab today.

how embarrassing.. i think everyone knows by now.

but now i can add more names to my list of nice people in nuh..

not to mention my classmates.. i dont know who helped me cos i was already in the student room with dr tan in front of me when i came round.. but im really grateful to them for helping..

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now i can stop worrying about being jobless after i graduate..

im employed =)

its a temp job.. but at least im on the right track to earning money to go curtin..

mum and grandpa were over the moon when i told them yesterday.. i know mum has been worrying about me not being able to get a job.. as for grandpa.. i dont think he realise the pressure that he has put on me by constantly comparing me with my cousin.. who has got a banking job that earns a crazy amount of money (ill be laughing my way to IMH if i can earn that every month. yes. happy until siao)

my grandpa's view

fillial granddaughter - earns crazy amount of money, gives 0 cents to her family, treats him to a meal once in a blue moon, comes to see him once in a blue moon, gives him an ang bao on CNY, not to mention being a total darling in his eyes.

useless granddaughter - schooling, gives 0 cents to her family, have dinner with him everyday, treats him to cheapo food occasionally, gets an ang bao from him on CNY, is ugly in his opinion.

oh you realised? the latter is me..

i hope i made them feel better now that ive got a job..

if not, i dont know what else i can do..

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one last thing to blog about thats totally of no link to nuh or whatsoever..

i always know what to say and do to make people feel better when they are down..

but im forever at a loss when it comes to myself.. even thinking rationally when im upset is a tall order..

can someone tell me if this is normal?

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