sigh

its one of those days where i feel depressed and nothing seems to be able to cheer me up.. or even bring a smile to my face..

i was reading my 8 days today when the phone rang.. in my haste to get to the phone in my storeroom, i banged my ankle into the leg of the coffee table.. so 'fortunately', it had to be the ankle that i sprained years ago when i was young and boisterous.. *yelps* my ankle looks like the fishball from the noodles at jurong point kopitiam(the ultra big ones, which happens to be my favourite)..

its a really boring day.. spent most of the day playing gunbound.. could be due to my depressed mode.. but i played really badly today.. lost almost every match.. sometimes the people playing gb really pisses me off.. there are 2 groups of people which i hate.. the arrogant and rude ones and the desperados who flirt with girls online.. sad to say.. 99.9% of these people are guys.. had a team mate who killed me twice today.. and he said i sucks when i missed a shot.. and of course being the nasty person that i am.. and with some help.. made him go silent by my formidable skill of lemoning.. this was how the mini war of words went..

idiot/fu*ker/dumb ass (choose one, my choice is idiot) : pig u sucks

me : well.. u too..

idiot : i just nv aim ok.. u sucks more..

me : well.. u definitely sucks..

me : if u think u don.. u have truly mastered the art of deception..

idiot : bitch

me : i despise u =)

other players on opposite team : [tells idiot to shut up]

idiot : f*ck u all [followed by silence from him throughout the game]

cant stand the guy.. so full of himself when he actually sucks.. when hes not killing me off accidently, hes busy SGing other people.. hes right.. hes definitely not aiming (or perhaps in my opinion, he already tried his best ala william hung style)

the other type of guys is those who flirt with girls while playing. my nick for gb is pig1986 and somehow, guys seem to find that cute -_-.. they always say 'i' look so sweet and all.. and they love to add me and talk to me when im playing my game.. which is like pop ups appearing when im surfing the net (irritating).. well i think if they know how i look like in real life, they'll go running in the other direction.. im just an ugly girl with a protruding tummy.. wearing glasses unsightly thick due to myopia.. i chew my nails and ive got fat and stubby fingers.. my balding head of hair looks like hay due to the recent chlorine bath.. (swimming).. i got infinite numbers of black heads on my large and flat nose.. nothing about me.. a.b.s.o.l.u.t.e.l.y nothing about me is sweet. neither am i beautiful. neither am i cute. or smart(biomed science student in np isnt everything cos there are lots of branier peeps around so stop the suck up).. im just a below average looking girl trying to kill time by playing some games so stop disturbing me!!! argh...

ky told me that the gang recently went for a movie outing together.. ive got to admit this.. i feel really sad that they didnt call me along.. its been bothering me for one whole day and its contributing largely to me feeling depressed.. i no longer feel that im still part of the team.. i originally planned to take my next grading and then go for a break but now.. i feel like im in a place that im not welcomed..

im just a bitter lonely and depressed girl after all.. jay concert tml.. would have brought me to cloud 9 thinking about that usually.. but i feel absolutely no excitement now.. =(