new gi

listening to greenday- boulevard of broken dreams (DARN nice)

bought new adidas gi from liang seng yesterday.. plus belt and all.. 100 bucks gone.. but the gi is nice.. plus its mum buying.. so.. heart not that painful =P..

took warm up and foot drills yesterday.. feel very awkward to have people bowing to me.. feels even more awkward facing the entire class while doing the warm up.. so many other black belts (sop sandy randal ronald kaiyuan) looking at me take the training.. im really not used to it..

the new aerobics is really freaking tough.. i cant seem to master it no matter how hard i try.. really feel very bad about it.. ch kept telling me that this new set is much more difficult than the other ones.. but.. i keep having the feeling that my standard has dropped after the long break.. i have a very high standard of myself when it comes to pattern and aerobics.. cause im strongest in this two.. everyone has the high expectations of me when it comes to this two.. no one has to teach me pattern or aerobics one on one last time.. i can learn it myself while watching people do.. but this time... die... cant do it for nuts.......

went to bugis with mum today.. bought another shirt (this time the colour is much more normal).. been spending quite a lot nowadays.. i think thats because i suffered a big blow.. ch spent much much more compared to me.. i dunno.. used to really hate shopping.. but i do get the shuang feeling when i buy stuff that i like nowadays..

so far.. new phone.. new bag.. new hair colour.. new clothes.. all i need is a heart to replace my broken one.. and a brain to let me forget him.. heart and brain transplant anyone?

ive decided not to wear the ring on around my neck anymore.. but ive got no idea where to put it.. cause im so so afraid of losing it.. its freaking small (although its too big for my finger).. was looking at the ring just now and i was reminded of the time when he wore the ring for me for the first time (vday last year).. i wonder where he kept his..

enough of sad entry.. im going to catch some sleep.. full day at ttsh tomorrow.. predict i will fall asleep.. especially after lunch.. zZZZzzzZZZzz...