listening to blue - breathe easy

mind has been tied down to so many things its starting to drive me nuts..

its not just the deadlines and exams..

things that i worry for but cant talk about..

stress to overcome the fear on sunday..

im thinking about losing nationals and failing exams everyday.. just cant see the bright side in things..

im breaking out with infinite number of pimples on my face.. and to congratulate myself.. ive come down with a bad bout of fever..

body is covered with so many humongous patches of blue blacks i look like i got leukaemia or dengue or something.. so many people kicked me that day i forgot who hit where.. but my left elbow's jutting out so badly i cant rest my elbow on the table and write without feeling pain..

only got myself to blame for being a human sandbag.. its my fault for not retaliating..

i still feel that ive let everyone down..

just feel so sick of being so pathetic in everything..

im losing it..