listening to chen xiao dong - wo bi sui dou qing chu

still feeling down.. but definitely better now that nationals are thrown off the list of worries that i have..

still thinking of him.. i dont know why im always like that when im feeling super down.. really hate myself for not being able to control my mind..

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to a good friend whom i really care for..

hey girl.. saying things like "cheer up" and "be strong" to u is just stupid cause its not gonna help in any way eh? sometimes i got nothing to say to u when we chat.. not because im entertaining u by pretending to listen.. its because i understand how u feel so much that i know wadever is said isnt gonna help..

sounds lame but i shed tears so many times as u told me how helpless you feel.. can relate to how u feel so much that it hurts me too..

im sure no matter how impossible it seems to u now.. u will be able to pull urself together and face everything like a strong girl eventually.. takes time.. u got the support of so many friends.. although we cant help.. we hope to make u feel better by letting u know that u are not alone afterall..

whenever u feel like breaking down.. talk to anyone of your friends.. including me.. dont keep everything inside you.. dont look happy if you are not deep down.. dont be strong just for the sake of putting up a show.. that was exactly what i did that time.. and it made me so miserable that i completely lost it.. i dont want it to happen to any of my friends that i care for.. esp a good friend like u..

dont ask yourself what are u gonna do.. how are u gonna face things.. no use pondering over such things.. "chuan dao qiao tou zi ran zhi"..

talk to me if u need the listening ear.. i will be there to listen.. even if i cant give u any useful advice..

hope to see the old u soon.. jiayou girl..