listening to jay - qing tian

guess i am..

not feeling ok again?

just so fed up with the paper today.. whatever chunks of info ive memorised...

didnt come out..

and whatever little that i happened to skip came out..

in mcqs.. in short ans.. in essay.. that is.. every single section of the paper..

IF i can make it this time round.. gonna thank chiu yen for lending ( not many people in our class are willing to do that ya) me her own notes to read right before going into the auditorium..

gonna come out bad this time round.. can sense it..

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really feeling very down now..

stupid lecturer for genomics (friends who care enuff to listen to my grumbles occasionally will know who)... i hate her to the core..

whatever comments that i have about her.. are just too mean to be posted here.. people out there who know me.. should know how mean i am usually to people i dont like.. so..

when im trying to restrain myself from saying smth that i think its mean..

means its really... ... ..

u get the idea.

to summarise my hatred for her.. lets just say that i believe in karma.. whatever bad things she has done to her students.. .... WILL BE... ... ... ...

karma.. karma!

i failed her bloody test that i took sometime ago.. i failed a test man...

I FAILED A TEST.. HOLY FUCKING SHIT.

its a feeling i havent been experiencing since... i was in.... primary 6 (maths)..

ya.. thats 7 years ago..

which means i haven been failing in 7 years...

for flying so high in terms of academic results since PSLE to O levels..

failing for a FUCKING SHITTY paper like this is like getting a tight slap on my face..

its an insult..

its..

its...

depressing. to say the least.

i really hate studying to the core right at the moment. i cant help myself.

or rather. i cant be bothered to help myself anymore.