listening to james blunt - you're beautiful

just reached home from chalet with the tkd gang.. its really comfortable being with them.. really appreciate the chance to chill out..

could have enjoyed myself even better without the winks and smiles that were thrown at us whenever i was talking with him.. it just made me feel very awkward.. im sure he felt the same way too.. although god knows what he is thinking behind the constantly stony face..

i know everyone meant well.. but the hinting and winking will do more harm than good..

im really happy with the way things are now.. im happy enough to be able to share common topics with him.. to be able to keep my cool (despite feeling giddy with excitement inside) when im hanging out with him..

happy enough to steal glances at him occasionally.. happy enough to sit quietly beside him during the long trip home..

seriously happy with the way things are now.. ive got no wish to expect more either..

just hope that the pointing and whispering wont ruin the happiness that i enjoy so much now..

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~but its time to face the truth.. i will never be with you~