Listening to Samantha Jade - Step Up

Ive been reaching home past midnight yesterday and today. love henderson cc too much i guess.

i told the gang yesterday that i dont know why i still go for training sometimes though im already feeling cui liao.

i gave it a good thought yesterday and i realised why.

i feel secure when im with them. people to laugh and joke with. people to train with. when we are tired we just collapse onto the matting together. people to guide each other. people who will catch you when you fall, literally.

none of which i can find at my workplace, or for that matter, home.

but of course there are also things that can be found at home and not at hcc. things like my bed, the fridge, my com, the idiot box (in order of importance). family warmth? dont feel so much of that at the moment. everyone is not at home all the time. haven had a decent meal together for i cant even remember how long already.

there are also things that can be found at workplace and not at hcc. things like politics, backstabbing, bullying and stress.

lol.

im not going for the standard chartered run anymore. my legs are dead after the countless 360 turnings yesterday night. and the countless number of hard landings while trying to do the somersaults and cartwheels.

屁股开花.

i finally opened myself to the idea of lifting both my feet up from the ground to do the cartwheel.
and i can do it! (not very well though)

thanks to everyone who taught me how to.

=)